Ready to leap

Its funny how when we hit 40 we look back on our life and wonder have I really been living my life or merely existing. Do I want my next 40 years to be like my last? When did I get lost in my everyday existence just going through the motions of day to day life. All the possibilities I dreamt, stuffed away a long time ago, placed in a neat tidy box on a shelf. Now, here I am opening the box imagining my possibilities wondering if I am being selfish for wanting to live my dreams. Waking up everyday dreading what I am doing. I want to be like the few who put their feet on the floor every morning excited about their new creation. Dreaming about the next pattern, fabulous fabric and finished design waiting to pour out of me. I am a creator stuck on the hamster wheel ready to leap off.